It’s been a good two months since my last blog post, and in this post I’ll be telling you guys why I’ve been MIA. First of all, I just want to say that it’s so crazy how much can happen in such a short amount of time, right?! Anyway, I have been taking a break from blogging for a couple of reasons (in no particular order):
#1. Making an Investment
I’ve been looking to make a huge investment with my savings. I’m fortunate to make a decent living at such a young age (I’m 24 in case you’re wondering). I’m truly blessed with how my life has turned out but I also work my ass off! Of course theres a catch… good money=equals more taxes :( after 3 years of watching chunks of my paychecks being taken out and going to taxes.. I decided I should invest my money. So for the last couple months or so I’ve been considering investment opportunities. I’ve spent about 2 months so far working with a realtor and looking for a home to buy so that I can rent it out. It has been stressful at times, making a huge investment is not an easy decision, and can be risky. I’ve seen many houses and still can’t seem to find the right one. Until I find the perfect one to rent out, I will continue looking for other ways to invest my money.
#2. My Full-Time Job
In case you didn’t know.. (reminds me of Brett Young’s song) haha ok like I was saying.. I work for a healthcare company in Bakersfield. I am a Community Liaison. We offer Hospice Care, Palliative Care, and Home Health services. I have a base salary but I also receive commission due to the sales portion of my job. Ok so my job consists of sales (I bring in patients and receive commission for the patients that I bring in) of course this is how the company makes their money. NO patients= NO money. Simple as that right. Well that’s a ton of pressure on me okay… Every week I have goals to meet, and it’s not easy. In this industry there is so much competition, and it’s only growing as more and more companies try to offer the same services. Pretty much every week I stress out.. like am I going to meet my goals this week.. am I going to be in trouble on Monday’s weekly meeting with the big bosses. It’s hard. Some months are great and others are not, it’s a roller coaster honestly. To give you a little more background of how I do my job… I do marketing to all Hospitals, Skilled Nursing Facilities, RCFE Homes, and all Dr’s offices in Kern county (WEEKLY). Yup every day Mon-Fri I’m driving around doing my visits. Between me and my partner we do it all. I also do presentations, organize and participate in community events, handle our social media account, go on the radio to promote our services, network, meet with families who are considering hospice, ETC!! To clarify my job can be very fun, sad, challenging, flexible, and REWARDING. Hospice is a sensitive subject and I still do get emotional watching families make that hard decision to put their loved ones on hospice. The rewarding part is when the families thank you for being there for them and their loved one.
On another note, it’s fun because I get to be out and about and network with other people. I’ve actually made a lot of great working relationships in the past couple years while marketing. Nonetheless it is a stressful job because at the end of the day it’s a business and if we don’t have patients then we don’t have money to pay employees. Simple. Therefore this is reason #2 because when I get home from work I just want to wind down and destress… do nothing.. spend time with my family and friends. I get home tired and haven’t felt like rushing home from work to change my outfit, redo my hair and makeup so that I can go shoot some looks. I was occasionally shooting on the weekends but some weekends were too busy for my bf and I and we just couldn’t make the time to shoot.
Man where do I begin… Stress is TOXIC. There I said it. So as I’ve talked about so far. I’ve been busy with work, looking for homes, and finding time for friends and family. Finding a piece of mind has been a struggle. Not finding the time to blog has also added more stress on me. I pressured myself to do too much at the same time and the truth is I can’t be putting 100% of me into everything. I need a balance and I’m very slowly getting there haha I haven’t even gone to the gym and I’ve pretty much lost most of my muscle. I spent all last year going to the gym 3-4 times a week, sometimes 5. And this year I have been maybe 4 times all year. Sad. This leads to reason #4..
Ok so throughout my entire life I pretty much had GREAT skin. I was comfortable in my skin and not wearing much or no makeup. After I graduated college I started breaking out. This was due to me getting off of birth control. My birth control was causing me to have hair loss. I switched birth control several times… I tried different doses of the pill, and the patch. Nothing was helping and was causing me to break out and lose hair. Once I got off of it my face broke out really bad. However my hair stopped falling out, which is what I wanted initially Anyway I made an appt with the dermatologist and they began doing chemical peels/ microdermasions on me. It seemed to be working after a whole year of doing it. It wasn't until Oct 2017 that my face finally cleared up. My face was in good shape for about 6 months and I was just left with some acne scars but I would rather have a couple dark spots and scars that will eventually go away, as opposed to actual acne. WELL… that all changed 2 and a half months ago. As all of these things began happening in my life that began stressing me out.. my face began breaking out again. However it is not like the pimples I used to get, instead it was just tiny textured bumps on my forehead and only on my forehead. They are really noticeable and I couldn’t get rid of them no matter how many facials I got or products I used. Then about a month ago I did skin rejuvenation and my skin went crazy. I now have those tiny textured bumps all over my jawline, sides of my face, and forehead. At first I thought it was eczema. They wouldn't go away and didn’t have white heads but now I’m feeling like it might be Millia. Yup it sucks not knowing what it is. I have made another dermatologist appt so hopefully we can figure it out and put an end to this self-esteem killer (ACNE). I’m really praying that we can find a solution because honestly I haven’t had luck with my dermatologists, they literally spend 5 min in the room with you and rush through any questions you have so they can get out of there and onto the next patient. AND they just push their products on you so you can spend more money. If anyone knows a great dermatologist in Bakersfield please let me know.
#5. Not Feeling So HOT
I didn’t know how else to say it lol Pretty much with this whole situation on my face I haven’t been feeling like my confident self.. I mean what can I say I feel self conscious. I hate washing my face and feeling all these textured little bumps. I’ve been trying not to wear any foundation but it hasn’t done too much for me anyway. I’ve also stopped using many products just so I can let my skin breathe as well. So yeah basically haven’t been feeling too great to take photos. Don’t get me wrong I still have taken some photos because I’m trying not to let it bring me down. But it’s of course still in the back of my mind. I’m including some photos I took last weekend, where you can sort of see the bumps on my my forehead. They’re not so visible on the rest of my face in these photos though.
Anyway thanks for reading a long, now you're pretty much up to date on my absence from this blog and my life at the moment. I'd appreciate it if you’d leave me a comment and let me know your thoughts or any advice you may have for me. Let me know if you’d like to see more photos of my acne journey. They’re not cute but I’ll show them. Lol
Happy Saturday night! ❤️